Throughout the years, I seem to have grown to be a skeptic unknowingly. It could be through the influence of people and work. I used to believe in everybody and now I am growing to disbelieve in everybody. I wonder if the positivity in me has changed to negativity.
Nowadays, I tend to notice some detail behavior or speech of one person before I believe in what they are saying. I may not show what my mind is running but yes, the evidence is generating some evaluation reports in my brain. Learning to withhold my thoughts is another skill of art.
The clearer my eyes and thoughts are, the more imperfection and lies I see. That's why it brings more negativity in one's mind. I like to analyse human behaviour. All the information from my eyes and ears makes me analyse better on each person I talk to.
In personal life, this skepticism can be more of a hindrance than a help.
At work with the management, this seems to be a norm. Everybody is playing showhand aka mind games with what they are talking about. They are skeptical enough to see through their enemies and they must not be over skeptical to make too many enemies. The winner is the one whose skepticism is in the mind only, surprise your enemies with silent moves. Silent killer they say.
In conclusion, it's sometimes better to see the world with a slight short-sightedness and ignore some of the imperfections in life. That's how kids remain happy until they grow up.
