Just watched this movie yesterday.

If you think that life is just a simple journey, Final Destination 3 somehow makes you think about those unfortunate people who died from tsunamis, 911 incident and many other natural calamities. The actual story is not about natural calamities but it's about death. How much it could mean to you.

The story started from the high school girl who had premonitions about something evil and scary that was going to happen next. From the pictures which she had taken from her digital camera, she found clues that everybody who were in the pictures died mysteriously starting from a roller coaster ride. The rest died in a gruesome way.

The pictures were gruesome and scary. I covered my eyes a few times watching it. I seldom do that, this was my second time. The first time was while watching Sin City. I'm not really terrified watching ghost stories but I'm scared of gruesome scenes. What made my heart pumped was all about what was going to happen next. Horror and Suspense index I would give: 5/5. That's what I feel.

At the same time, it reminded me of many things in life. Death seemed so far but you never know what's going to happen when it comes. It's about cherishing the people whom you love around you. Have we ever cared for them when they are alive? How about treating them as though you will never see them tomorrow? Starting from feeling scared about my dad's operation when I was young. I remembered that I cried hard. Damn worried. Then came my grandmother's stroke and she became paralysed, I watched her with my own eyes unable to move from the bed. I tried to support her to come up but I didn't have the energy to do so, I sent her to the hospital myself. It was my first time calling 995. I can only drop tears when I see her on the bed. No one will know how sad I felt, much more than anybody. She's the one who took care of me most, although she was naggy but I loved her. I played with her most of the time. I took her to movies even though she could not understand, but she was overjoyed that time. *Dropping tears right now* Whenever I think about this, I get very sad. Anyway, it's over. When death came for her, I felt that it was a relief for her. It pained me to see her living life on the wheelchair and bed. At least she lived to see her grandchildrens and grand-grand children. Sorry, I got carried away talking about her. That's how I started to cherish health, my life and the people around me. Then follow-up was everything that follows which makes me feel that I should be nice to everyone.

While watching the movie, I had the exact same feeling. That's why I could feel my heart racing each time they try to save someone. Well, I guess what each of us derive from the story is based on each of our personal experience. It probably takes a journey to realise some of them sometimes.

Well, life goes on! People say success is a journey. I believed truly. Moral of my story: Live with our heart more than our mind. Aza aza fighting!

Work was so stressed up yesterday, everything got very messed up for me. It's not a super bad day, but it's a day in which my heart feels very heavy.

My work is tying my heart down with 50kg, my internet project is tying me down with another 10kg. My heart is so heavy. Well, it's all in the mind. I believe, it's all a matter of how I coped with it. Today is a more relaxed day, after my project meeting, I felt better. Less work that's hanging on me right now. I should never bother myself with work on a great weekend.

Can't really cope with silence. I need to relax. Can you help me?

Battery's getting low at 41% now. Writing at Causeway Point Macdonalds. I guess I got to make a return trip to charge my laptop battery. See ya soon.

I find that actually many people don't really seem to know me. I guess they just never try to understand who I am. Superficial friends look at you at the superficial level. It's all about how deep you are analysing.

The following is what I analysed myself to be and some truth about myself.

1. I have my reasons for my own actions even if they are just a reaction. Any chemical reaction is a result of the chemicals. Simple theory. I have my likes and dislikes too, I never twist them unless something more important overtakes. And I know others have their likes and dislikes too. I never attempt to change that, unless I happened to influence them by chance.

2. Rebellious nature. I'll do anything for anything for anybody if I feel happy about it or no qualms about it. I'll do the vice versa, I'll just not do anything, or show my angry self if I don't feel happy for what I see or feel. However, in my nature, I normally try to seek a listener friend to tell my woes and release my stress.

3. Making friends. I just loved to make friends. It's not just about networking. I feel happy when I can make somebody less lonely. Why not just make a friend?

4. Things or time which I will spend on is a matter of priority to a person. Simple enough. I don't really procrastinate unless it's not important to me. Which is to say, I have my own priorities. Of course priorities differs from person to person.

These are the four so far which I had a spur of writing on. Might have more.

WELL, I'm not a simple, superficial dimwit if people deemed me to be. I will not be disappointed by that because it's just that they fail to understand me.

Wanna finer things in life?

From 50 Cents. With explicit lyrics.
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like the fire needs the air
I won't burn unless you are there

(Talking)
Yeah, I need you, I need you to hate
So I can use you for your energy
You know, it's really shit, feel this!

[Verse 1]
America got a thing for this gangsta shit, they love me
Black chuckers, black skully, leather Pelle Pelle
I take spin over Raymo shit, I'm a vandal
Got the siver duct tape, on my tre 8 handle
The women in my life, bring confusion and shit
So like Nino in New Jack, I holla "cancel that bitch
"
Look at me, this is the life I chose
Niggaz around me so cold, man my heart done froze
I build an empire on the low, the narc's don't know
I'm the weatherman, i'll take that cocoa leaf, and make that snow
Sit back, watch it turn to doe, watch it go out the door
O after O, you know
Homie i'm just triple beam, dreamin
Niggaz be scheming, I feind to live the good life
The feinds are just fiendin'Conceal my weapon nice and neat, so you can't see
The penitentiary is definitly out the question for me

[Chorus]
I want the finer things in my life
So I hustle (hustle)
Nigga you get in my way while i'm tryin' to get mine
And i'll fuck you (buck you)
I don't care who you run with or where you from
nigga fuck you (fuck you)
I want the finer things in my life
So I hustle (hustle)

[Verse 2]
Yea, I don't know shit about gymnastics, I summersault bricks
Black talons start flyin', when a nigga flip
I cook crack in the microwave, niggaz can't fuck with me
Man my cold days, they called me chef boy are 50
Check my logic, smokers don't like seeds in they weed
Shit, send me them seeds, i'll grow 'em what they need
Them ain't chia pet plants in the crib, that's chronic
And i'm sellin' them for 500 a pop god damit
I sell anything, I'm a hustler, I know how to grind
Step on grapes, put it in water, and tell you it's wine
If you analyze me, what you find
Is the DNA of a crook, and what goes on in my mind
It's contagious, hypnotic, it sounds melodic
If rap was the block or a spider, i'd be that potent product
Now get a load of me, flashy, far from low key
And you can locate me, wherever that doe be
Gettin' money man

[Chorus]
I want the finer things in my life
So I hustle (hustle)
Nigga you get in my way while i'm tryin' to get mine
And i'll buck you (buck you)
I don't care who you run with or where you from
nigga fuck you (fuck you)
I want the finer things in my life
So I hustle (hustle)

[Verse 3]
It's a hustler's ambition, close you eyes listen, see my vision
Mossberg pumpin', shotgun dumpin', the drama mean nothin'
It's part of the game, catch me in the coupe, switchin' lanes
Or in the jeweler switchin' chains
I upgrade from 30 BS, to clean VS
Rocks that I copped, from proceeds from the spot
I got the energy to win, I'm full of adrenaline
Play the curve and get nauseous, watchin' the spinners spin
I make plans to make it, a prisoner of the state
Now I can invite your ass out to my estate
Them hollow tips bent me up, but i'm back in shape
Pour crystile in a blender, make a protein shake
I'm like the east coast number 1 playboy B
Hugh Hef'll tell you he ain't got shit on me
The fed's watch me, icey,they can't stop me
Racist, pointin' at me, look at niggerochi
Hello!

[Chorus]
I want the finer things in my life
So I hustle (hustle)
Nigga you get in my way while i'm tryin' to get mine
And i'll buck you (buck you)
I don't care who you run with or where you from
nigga fuck you (fuck you)
I want the finer things in my life
So I hustle (hustle)

Welcome to 2006. My life began with a big bang. With that, I meant a serious big bang. Some went well, most went wrong. How wonderful it is. Never have things gone so far for the Jamming Lady.

January 2006 sparked with fireworks. Beginning with my first tiff, followed by my first loss of a loved one, then my first time being condemned by some company by writing a private blog on it and then my first Chinese New Year with him outside Singapore. Wow, what more? I really jammed it.